11 Dec. 2004

A few important things might be happening

Large clouds overcast out the distance

Noise that like music play

Banging sensations from the toil of the coffee bean baristas

It’s an important time for us all

Taking a cellar phone fast

And then climbing back down the mountain 

Discovering that the phone calls have pilled up

On my answering system

I have phone calls too

I call the lady and the man who have written me a bad check

Just like the creditors call after me where I live

And my step mother grits her teeth as her

Pride has never known a time where she did not pay a bill

Lucky for us all

Lucky in this important time with important things going on

Of course this is just the drivel of a man who is an alcoholic

A man who’s best friend has been, always alcohol and loneliness

Now I try to let go of my friend alcohol and get a new friend

I focus on loneliness and I focus on my relationship with IT ALL

On my desktop is a picture of Charles Bukowski

Like he was my old friend

We knew alcohol at different and sometimes the same time

Of course I never knew him personally

I can only hope that I can walk away from the crash… this time again.

I really need to make new friends.